Camouflage 1

I'm big on titles...Especially kuwda titles as these gets my writing juices flowing and gives me a sense of how I want the composition to flow. So perched cross-legged on the edge of my big bouncy bed with my laptop firmly placed on the hollow created by my pins crossed as I begin to type this very draft for kuwda, I turned the laptop on as I'd just gotten a title for this post which is "camouflage" ,the inspiration coming from listening to the hit song with the same title by brandy which in relation to this post couldn't be more apt  spurring me to grab my laptop and start typing away. So why camouflage?

Crimson skyline

To say it was an aberration won't quite do it justice, it was in the least, earth shattering, as  though all forms of life activity mysteriously got sucked out of us,numbing us to stillness as Karl's words reverberated through our respective heads in a shocking statement that would later quite blow up in our faces,

"I'm converting back to Christianity"

He said again in case it didn't sink in the first time. As far as we knew,Karl was happy being muslim or so we thought and was slowly getting used to Mom calling him by his muslim name Omar.

"But why?".

Was all Mom could utter in a shaky voice that thankfully sliced through the stillness which was so profound I was beginning to feel suffocated,

Compound matters

"Part of the process of beginning anew, or changing directions is to know where you want to go. I know this sounds simplistic and easy, but this is one of the most difficult of choices to make with clarity.",

 "The chief beauty about time is that you cannot waste it in advance.The next year, the next day, the next hour are lying ready for you,as perfect, as unspoiled,as if you had never wasted or misapplied a single moment in all your life. You can turn over a new leaf every hour if you choose."

Those rich words by byron pulsifer and arnold bennet respectively resonated in my head that morning in light of my recent confusion as to what I wanted out of life and the direction I needed to tow professionally as read in the third part of HASHTAG SURPRISE AWAITS  as I got ready to resume work at  NIMC headquarters to begin a new course in my life, charged with gusto to give my new job my all,create good impressions and do a satisfactory job to the best of my ability,although naturally I was a nervous wreck,I tried to pull myself together and show up to work as promised.

#Surpriseawaits 3

On stepping into the two-storey building with faded painting of the National Directorate of Employment (NDE) ,my face suddenly fell sullen and my body chilly from a rush of anxiety which swept through me, causing goose-bumps all over my body.

The whole busy-beehive ambiance of the different offices with staffs  behind desks, jotting notes on files and others frantically waving excitedly,saying hello to colleagues as they resumed for work had a strange effect on me which made me nervous and quite slow,affecting my walking and overall quick assimilation of the things people said to me which isn't  how I normally am thereby lulling my usually lively self  which was now beginning to irritate me but sadly couldn't help myself, I couldn't explain it,I guess am always like that when in a totally new environment,miles away from my comfort zone.

All through school,the dream has always been to get a job,work behind a desk and sign files away,get paid and all that and now,it seems the future I dreamt of back then is  here and I feel quite unready because in all these time,through having new experiences,thoughts,education,exposure,knowledge et al,my dreams have inadvertently changed but what I want now,I couldn't exactly put into words or maybe am just a little overwhelmed from the thoughts of what it would feel like working in an office or the thoughts that adulthood and being responsible for myself had officially begun.

Happy new month of July

This is wishing you all Amazeballs a fulfilled month,full of everything positive you wish for..to you and yours. Happy new month.

I know i've been quite MIA in recent times on the blog,this is due to recent ill-health and the struggle of balancing work schedule with my writing committments,it's been quite hectic,but i know that shouldn't be an excuse,am still working on the best modalities to work things out so neither work nor blog suffers,please do bear with me.


So next on Keeping Up With The Adagiris-